itsjustlife

Haha, easier said than done. That’s what I think… Letting Go. I have always wondered what it would feel like to jump out of an airplane rushing to the ground, only assuming and having faith that your parachute would open in time for you to not crash into the earth. It’s something I wonder about, but know I will never be able to feel. I can’t let go like that. It’s taking a leap of faith. Something I’ve done quite recently in life… taking leaps of faith. I took a leap of faith getting married (I know, what?!) I believe everyone takes that leap to be committed to one person for the rest of their lives. Do I believe that there is more than one person in life for everyone, yes. Do I believe I have known more than one person in life that was perfect for me… yes, but I still took that leap of faith. I took a leap of faith to move to Indy, not knowing what would happen once we moved here, not knowing if my grad school would work out.

I have issues with taking too many leaps because that means I am not in total control over my life. If you know me, I have to have control, I have to know what the next step is going to be, I like to have everything planned out. However, I know that the realization that life will go exactly how I plan is unrealistic. I’ve been screwed over with college after college, I’ve been frustrated with relationships and disappointed with those that have failed, but I am thankful for the one relationship I know will last forever, my relationship with Christ. He took a leap of faith for all of us, has our whole lives planned out in order that we can turn over control… but like I said: easier said than done.

My new goal is to try to let go because God has said, ” For I know the plans I have for you, the plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.” While I am not 100% happy with everything that has happened in my life, and while there are regrets and things I can’t shake off, I need to know that everything has been planned out, even if I fail to understand it! Here is a great song I recently heard on someone’s profile, just thought it fit and was appropriate!
My heart beats, standing on the edge
But my feet have finally left the ledge

Like an acrobat
There’s no turning back

Chorus
I’m letting go
Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
Losing control
Of my destiny
Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
So I’m letting go

This is a giant leap of faith
Trusting and trying to embrace

The fear of the unknown
Beyond my comfort zone

Chorus
I’m letting go
Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
Losing control
Of my destiny
Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
So I’m letting go

Giving in to your gravity
Knowing You are holding me
I’m not afraid

Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
Feels like I’m falling and this is the life for me

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